I was optimistic this morning, thought that having upped the naproxene dosage Saturday I'd be able to manage a short practice this morning. Nothing fancy, Vinyasa Krama Tadasana perhaps a couple of gentle sun salutations and padmasana.
Nice to go into the Shala, give the opening chant but just a few movements into tadasana and I knew it was a bad idea, laid down on the bolster and explored some of Shinzen's pain meditation instead. Secondary spread? what secondary spread, its all primary. Fifteen minutes of that and I figured I could sit up and do some pranayama but still problems in the sitting. Convinced it must be something to do with where the stone is, can't stand, can't sit for any length of time.
Spending most of my days in bed lifting my legs up and down and in and out supine baddha konasana and padmasana while listening to the cricket, reading about the Stoics and watching Battlestar Galactica ( Season 2).
Just realised, this whole 'pain' debate floating around at the moment, it's just viveka, a question of discernment
Part of me thinks I could just practice through the pain, the discomfort, that perhaps the movements might be good for encouraging the stone to move along its merry way, but then on the other hand this is a sharp pointy thing in a delicate little tube and I'm likely to just cause more inflammation. I need to get back to work.
Wednesday I'll have the scan and see the consultant, find out how big the bugger is, if there's more than one and the location, and most importantly if it'll come out on its own.
M. asked for the first time if I would still want to go to Crete and Manju if the stone is still there....
Nice to go into the Shala, give the opening chant but just a few movements into tadasana and I knew it was a bad idea, laid down on the bolster and explored some of Shinzen's pain meditation instead. Secondary spread? what secondary spread, its all primary. Fifteen minutes of that and I figured I could sit up and do some pranayama but still problems in the sitting. Convinced it must be something to do with where the stone is, can't stand, can't sit for any length of time.
Spending most of my days in bed lifting my legs up and down and in and out supine baddha konasana and padmasana while listening to the cricket, reading about the Stoics and watching Battlestar Galactica ( Season 2).
Just realised, this whole 'pain' debate floating around at the moment, it's just viveka, a question of discernment
Part of me thinks I could just practice through the pain, the discomfort, that perhaps the movements might be good for encouraging the stone to move along its merry way, but then on the other hand this is a sharp pointy thing in a delicate little tube and I'm likely to just cause more inflammation. I need to get back to work.
Wednesday I'll have the scan and see the consultant, find out how big the bugger is, if there's more than one and the location, and most importantly if it'll come out on its own.
M. asked for the first time if I would still want to go to Crete and Manju if the stone is still there....
4 comments:
get better soon. i am sure you will just hang in there
Don't push your luck Anthony, hang on in there 'till you get the ultrasound and they figure out where the stone is and how big it is. Practice will come back fresh and more beautiful as soon as it's gone. No worry. KENI
Thank you, this too, of course, shall pass.
I hear you Keni, ultrasound is only a couple of day a way, makes sense to be patient that little bit longer. Yes, I remember the last, after the stone passed, how amazing practice was, looking forward to that. And besides, many kinds of practice... Thanks Keni
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