Sunday, 16 August 2026

Did I dream those backbends?

Do you ever wonder if you dreamt your yoga? I get up 5:30am , light a candle, go through the familiar practice chanting my mantra. After a savasana I get up and go about my day and perhaps pause to assure myself I did actually practice that morning rather than just dream it.

Sometimes there are little flashbacks of something I'd forgoten, I just had one getting out of the bath, those backbends, did I dream those backbends?

I practiced primary this morning ( I think), everything has been so disrupted what with the coccyx, the leg, the tooth, the head..... that I've gone back to basics, morning Primary, evening VK/pranayama/meditation.

I did five urdhva danurasanas then moved my mat to the wall for my backbends. I usually work into it but this morning after a couple of stretches, dropped back and came up without tapping off the wall ( I usually tap off for the first couple just to work my way into it). Something felt different, I realized I had hardly moved my feet and felt taller somehow. I started dropping back and coming up on the breath, I'm hoping my body remembers more clearly what I was doing than my head tomorrow. I was still nutating my pelvis but somehow lifting too, I seemed straighter, taller. Normally my feet splay but here only the left foot was turning out and less than usual and I was coming up almost effortlessly.

I did think about getting the camera, kind of wish I had now as I'm paranoid it'll be like trying to get back to sleep and take up the dream where you left off. I don't know, I think something happened, it's as if my body, my back, has a secret. It's whispering to me now, not a pain or an ache but a presence, that backbend from this morning it's still there, for now at least, but will it come morning?

4 comments:

Academic Yogin said...

First, I am excited for your backbends. Second, I constantly get the feeling that I dreamed my practice or that my practice happened a few days earlier.

Claudia said...

Hey, what a great feeling, weather it comes back or not, just what a great feeling! :-)

maya9 said...

I often actually dream I'm doing yoga--practice is always so effortless and exhilarating in my dreams! And then I get confused during the day because I keep thinking I've already practiced so I go on about my day and then suddenly realized, no, I haven't, duh, it was just a dream. Crap.

On the other side, I get up very early to write and I often look back and can barely remember it--the whole thing records in my memory as a dream, just like your backbends, and then I think I haven't really done the work and I feel guilty.

It's all so confusing.

Grimmly said...

Envious Maya, don't think I've had an actual ashtanga dream. i do like the dreamlike quality of these darker mornings, just use the one candle now, quite eerie actually.

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