Press to handstand madness

Have become a bit obsessed with the Press to Handstand since seeing Lydia's YouTube videos. (see last post) Keep jumping up and throwing down a mat to give it another try. Her focus on the "pelvis in space"has been revelatory. I can do it in headstand and three point headstand, my legs floating up slowly,effortlessly but in handstand it still eludes me. It's close, too close which is why it's becoming obsessional.
Focusing on the pelvis has begun to appear key. It's affected my jump back I feel that the lift is coming more from my pelvis now and can see how it's possible for Lino to achieve his beautiful Jump Back or John Scott his lift to handstand from Navasana etc. That float back from standing to downward dog, a smoother jump to Bakasana and coming down from handstand into side crow all seem achievable if you can just get this. And of course my Kino jump through has improved, has more control and I can see that focusing on the pelvis will give the control that will enable me to jump into asanas in intermediate, something that seems way beyond me at the moment.

So I'm practising, trying Lydia's hamstring exercises, standing on yoga blocks, doing it again and again in handstands to try and build some muscle memory. My upper body aches, I'm doing something wrong, it's not about strength but positioning. I'm sure I'm not leaning far enough forward. I tried to get further forward and as I went up I crashed into the wall, head at a weird angle. There's a fear thing I'm sure, it's as if your forcing yourself to go beyond your point of balance to achieve a point of balance. It's close I can taste it but perhaps I'm just not ready for it yet. perhaps my hamstrings need to be longer (this is beginning to sound like a Naruda poem " I don’t love her, that’s certain, but perhaps I love her. ") But I know I can do it in Headstand so it MUST be possible in handstand no? Obsession, madness, they're going to cart me off to the crazy house with (0v0).

I just received the comment below with a tip taken from YouTube. The link provided seems to be a different video though.
"I would like to contribute a trick to pushing up to handstand that I learned from YouTube also. Go to a wall as if you are doing a handstand against the wall. But instead of having your fingers touch the wall, place them slightly further away so that if you look up, the crown of your head touches the wall. Now with only the crown of your head touching the wall, try pushing up to handstand. Your head surprisingly provides a lot of support and when you feel stable enough you can move your head until it doesn't touch the wall."

Many thanks for this. I had a go (actually several) and it got me up but puts a bit of a strain on the neck. Perhaps I was doing it wrong, too close or too far away from the wall. Think I'm getting closer, seem to be getting my pelvis higher. Here's a video of my best attempt so far.



*By the way I'm thinking about a new camcorder for these videos,any suggestions? Something cheap, HD perhaps but nothing too fancy At the moment I'm just using my phone. None of the YouTube or cnet camcorder reviews give an idea of which would be best for recording this kind of thing indoors